Anyway back to the title and reason for this blog. The last few days certain songs and poems have been going around in my head, the song from a programme Chigley I watched when I was a kid "Time flies by when you're a driver on a train, and I ride on the footplate there and back again" and also a poem by W.H Davies here it is:
W. H. Davies
LeisureWHAT is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare?—
No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare
There are several "Big" things in my life that are happening this year. My eldest children are 20, 19 and 17, my friend is due to have a baby in August, and also I hit a milestone of 40 on the 12th August with my husbands and I's church blessing happening on the 27th August. To top it all off, Matt is 50 on the 18th September so a busy busy year with lots of milestones!
This I think is the problem. Time for me is going so quickly I feel that I am standing still and everything is whooshing past and I want to grab hold of it and just slow time down and try and enjoy moments rather than dread them. Early this year I looked forward so much to the Royal Wedding and I loved it, again it went past in a blur.
When I look at photographs of my oldest children as babies it is amazing that what seems like in the blink of an eye, 20 years has gone by. Perhaps I'm just dwelling on things and not being "in" the moment is not as important as enjoying life and the little moments like Spud marching and saluting to Trooping of the Colour or doing "Kung Foo" with a hair brush while attacking the tv when Kung Foo Panda was on Saturday night, we have many moments of wonderfulness with Adam and Amy too, and when we all as a family have a laugh and joke, well it makes life here just amazing.
I think sometimes the challenges and obstacles of daily life are overshadowing the fleeting glimpses of joy that happens in each day. I admit I deeply miss the children that do not live with me and love them so very much. Looking at old photographs of my parents it is for me hard to understand that in the photographs they are so much younger than I am now, but they seem older than I am, if that makes any sense.
A very close friend today told me that we are who we are and just enjoy being yourself!
So I think I will try!